This weekend I broke my arm and wrist trail running with friends after camping on a mountaintop. The 4+ mile march back to the trail head and all the pretty girls I only said hello to as I arrived back to my car that I couldn't drive (dominant, right hand broken... stick shift) was devastating/awakening... and with the September tryout so close I just... It's difficult to communicate but, awakening and part of the process.
So close to my first goal. I wanted to be a stand out participant and let the cadre know I took it seriously and had been preparing sedulously and was all in. I sold my house. Paid all my debts. I sold my motorcycle, and I am getting ready to sell my car after the New Year. My lease is up in December and timing was perfect for everything. I have a full-time career as a software engineer that will transfer me to their city in the future and I have all my transcripts and my degrees and my awards, letters of recommendation, etc. in hand ready to enlist. First thing was first; do well on this evaluation... I know I should wait. I know it's an exercise in temperance, patience, and a reality check. Training is fun... Who cares how well you do and whether or not you earn a place of responsibility and trust... that whole way back to the trail head, arm dangling, mangled, I just reminded myself... This could happen to you if you matriculate and you are out on a mission... to you or anyone. This could become another hurdle. How would I handle it? What if we were a couple guys with a bunch of broken limbs and still had a mission to complete... This reality continues to weigh heavily. It's extremely tempering and humbling, as I can almost smell September and the cast will likely come off... and yeah... I feel like I should wait at last 12 weeks to heal and regain strength and start training and conditioning again. I wished I had just stopped when I saw the people but I was moving so fast, I had the right of way, they should have given me space, but they were just novice and having a good time, they didn't mean anything, I tried to be polite and give them move space and lost my footing and went over. I'm lucky I didn't hit my head or shatter a bone... I'm thankful and while I've crushed that trail dozens of times... that day it crushed me.
Luckily... no soft tissue damage and the break was clean and doesn't need surgery. I might be good in 6 weeks... I can probably put down a decent performance all around. Not as sharp as I was honing in on the date in my conditioning...
I'm conflicted... Show up (if doctor okays it)... Or inform cadre of the injury and pass until the next. The latter definitely feels like the wise move. If you could give a solid effort would you be clear you are just overcoming a break and the cast came off just 3 weeks prior or would you just decline, thank cadre for the honor, and show up to the next one if they were willing to invite you? I honestly prefer to the latter because I want to be where I was planning to be if the break didn't happen when I show up... When I am healthy I only need 9-12 weeks to get into a respectable state... It's only a few more months and I can do a temporary room share as I decide which of my siblings gets what from my belongings. Thoughts? Book recommendations to get me through the next few weeks? I am planning to do lots of legs and core and get a waterproof cast cover when I get my shorter waterproof cast cover. Maybe cycle and run... depends what the doctor says. We don't want any bones shifting!